oh boy. my mind is all over the place. my house needs cleaning, i need a shower, i want to listen to music. i'm trying to burn of all these energy so I can just relax. I think I am acting more clingy than usual.
Found some old USBs when I was cleaning my room earlier. Turns out they had some of my old RPG Maker Projects (unfinished of course). Spelling mistakes, bad mapping, poor balancing.... it was embarrassing to say the least. lol
When I compare my current project to my first attempt at a game, it feels good seeing how much I have improved.
I'm trying to be strong. I miss my parents. I can't sleep. It's so quiet outside. I can't stop crying. Nothing is fun anymore. I remember why I was shy before. Opening up and being vulnerable is hard. People will always make me feel stupid for trying..
*sigh* Took a break from my game this week because of depression.
Just got some bust images for my characters (thank you Ebanyle!) and now regained some motivation to work on my game.
Forgot how relaxing game making could be, I should do it more often when I'm stressed.