oh boy. my mind is all over the place. my house needs cleaning, i need a shower, i want to listen to music. i'm trying to burn of all these energy so I can just relax. I think I am acting more clingy than usual.
Found some old USBs when I was cleaning my room earlier. Turns out they had some of my old RPG Maker Projects (unfinished of course). Spelling mistakes, bad mapping, poor balancing.... it was embarrassing to say the least. lol
When I compare my current project to my first attempt at a game, it feels good seeing how much I have improved.
I'm trying to be strong. I miss my parents. I can't sleep. It's so quiet outside. I can't stop crying. Nothing is fun anymore. I remember why I was shy before. Opening up and being vulnerable is hard. People will always make me feel stupid for trying..
*sigh* Took a break from my game this week because of depression.
Just got some bust images for my characters (thank you Ebanyle!) and now regained some motivation to work on my game.
Forgot how relaxing game making could be, I should do it more often when I'm stressed.
Maker-ing has been being the best thing that happened to me this year so far. it is so good to rescue some old skills fo creativity and the people I have met are really incredible. I love my coffelanders and tocudos buddies. Maybe one day I will reach other countries folks too. S2
Well... My game plays better at 1920x1080, so I guess that's the new resolution. Still runs at 60FPS. Also... I really want a boss to be able to build new maps around the player... Mostly because it's visually spectacular! I'm er... not quite sure yet how I can do that without making MV explode.... But I'll find a way, anything in service to the "sparkles"!