Comments on Profile Post by Poryg

  1. Poryg
    Poryg
    The biggest problem is when things get emotional. I'm incapable of feeling emotions like a normal human. And nobody understands that. When someone asks me how I handle my father's death, things get awkward. "How is it even possible you don't feel anything?"
    Jul 18, 2019
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  2. Tw0Face
    Tw0Face
    did you consider you have some sort of autism maybe?
    Jul 18, 2019
  3. Poryg
    Poryg
    I did not consider that for multiple reasons.
    1. Autism is a neurological illness you're born with
    2. Autism prevents you from reading other people's emotions
    3. Before I was 19, I used to be quite normal and empathic.
    I can read emotions fairly well. Not just from gestures, but also from voice. So I'm not an autist.
    Jul 18, 2019
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  4. standardplayer
    standardplayer
    I don't know about this. Sociopaths tend to really not want to share the fact that they're sociopaths. They also tend to try to be charming, and try very hard to apply social tendencies that they learn through observation. I'm no specialist, but you don't remind me of someone with Antisocial Personality Disorder
    Jul 19, 2019
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  5. standardplayer
    standardplayer
    Again, I'm no specialist, I don't have any special training or knowledge other than the people with personality disorders I knew, know and several of whom I have close relationships with
    Jul 19, 2019
  6. Tw0Face
    Tw0Face
    I've read this carefully again and now think that it could be a form of depression. I've heard from some who suffer from it that sometimes they just don't feel anything anymore. Maybe you should check on that just to be sure.
    Jul 19, 2019
  7. Poryg
    Poryg
    @standardplayer If I share it with the rpg maker community, it's not going to haunt me in real life... And nobody around me apart from one person knows :p
    Nevertheless, the reason why you don't tend to tell others is, conclusions. Sociopath sounds kinda similar to psychopath, so people don't really like to hear it. In some workplaces sociopaths enjoy a nice demand though.
    Jul 19, 2019
  8. Poryg
    Poryg
    Also, you're right that sociopaths generally try very hard to apply social tendencies they see, because they're gifted in manipulation. I have had my way with word more times than you may believe, once I (unintentionally) almost pushed someone to commiting suicide, because I was really mad at them. But you have to remember that I don't socialize too much, so I don't have experience.
    Jul 19, 2019
  9. Poryg
    Poryg
    @twoface Actually, in my state it's not from time to time. It's rather constant with strikes of depression from time to time, during which I feel terrible. I have just learned to take things how they are. If we take the above mentioned example of father passing away, everybody hoped the doctors would save him. I knew they weren't going to from day 1. It was sad, but when it came, I had already come to terms with it.
    Jul 19, 2019
  10. Poryg
    Poryg
    Oops, wrong tag :D
    Jul 19, 2019
  11. Poryg
    Poryg
    Nevertheless, as long as I'm healthy and not a danger to my surroundings, I won't seek medical attention. Our family has a history with doctors and my trust issues don't help me gain trust in our psychiatrists either.
    Jul 19, 2019
  12. Galenmereth
    Galenmereth
    Sounds more like aspergers syndrome to me, based on having two longtime friends with it. Still, I wouldn't self-diagnose and would advise visiting professionals, especially since depression is involved.
    Jul 19, 2019
  13. Poryg
    Poryg
    @Galenmereth I used to be a pretty normal child. I was just extremely careful and clingy to females, but other than that quite normal. At the age of 14 I began showing signs of depression and my emotional side started to take a hit around the age of 17. It cannot be autism, it would have shown itself way sooner.
    Jul 19, 2019
  14. Galenmereth
    Galenmereth
    @Poryg I wrote "asperger", not autism. It's very different, and fits what you describe more the way I read it. There are some similarities with sociopathy.
    Jul 19, 2019
  15. Galenmereth
    Galenmereth
    Just as an added comment to the above, one of my friends didn't have asperger discovered until he was 29 years old, because there's a spectrum and it's far from debilitating.
    Jul 19, 2019
  16. Poryg
    Poryg
    Reafing the symptoms it looked to me more like autism. But ok :D
    Jul 19, 2019
  17. standardplayer
    standardplayer
    This is why I come here. The tenacity of both creating your own RPG and having a debate about Autism, like cookies and milk. Oh, you can have them separately. But when you put them together....This site has it all.
    Jul 19, 2019
  18. Poryg
    Poryg
    Well, discussing sicknesses has one disadvantage. Many sicknesses have very similar symptoms, so how do we distinguish what is what? :D
    Jul 19, 2019
  19. Galenmereth
    Galenmereth
    That's what doctors and experts within separate fields can help with, and why getting professional help is important.
    Jul 19, 2019
  20. standardplayer
    standardplayer
    Who knows? I like you either way, and I'm still pretty sure you're a Jedi, or something similar. I'm like 85% sure this is all just Jedi related.
    Jul 19, 2019
  21. Poryg
    Poryg
    In our country it is very common to prescribe antibiotics against flu. So I'm not sure about the help in our country being professional :D
    Jul 19, 2019
  22. Wavelength
    Wavelength
    This is beyond my understanding to be really honest, but I just want to say that a lot of us here like you and care about you very much, Poryg, and that it IS okay to be wildly different. Do not ever hate yourself for it.
    Jul 19, 2019
  23. Poryg
    Poryg
    @Wavelength I don't really hate being different, it has its advantages. It just complicates some of my social interactions.
    Jul 19, 2019
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