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I want to thank you for any suggestions, however obvious or minor they might seem to you, they are helpful.
Feel free to skip to the end. I wanted to put the paragraph below in a spoiler but it wouldn't let me for some reason.
I haven't worked on my game for a very long time. I've been dealing with some mental health issues that took every joy out of my life and I didn't feel like I deserved to be happy or do things that were fun. Working on my game was a big hobby of mine for a few years. I spent any moment I could working on it, even though I was distracted a lot by the forums, shiny tilesets, and cool plugins and didn't really have a clear idea and plan of what I needed to do. It used to be a lot of fun, something I was excited about, something I looked forward to every day and it just... made sense to make games. But it doesn't make sense now.
I stopped working on it not because I lost interest but because I felt I didn't quite deserve to make games and be happy anymore because I was a useless person, even though it might seem silly to some. I tried to get back to it several times during the past year but it either sucked me in in such a way that I forgot about eating, sleeping, and everything else I needed to do so I forced myself to stop because I knew I shouldn't ignore what was happening "IRL". Or I had a hard time getting excited about it again because I felt like I shouldn't be doing it.
I would really like to start working on games again. I just can't give up. I tried many times to give up on it, I wanted to delete everything because I couldn't deal with wanting to but not being able to do it. I felt like the idea of possibly making games again sometime in the future was the only light at the end of the tunnel but it just became smaller and smaller as I went."
I'd like to ask you for some easy ways to get that spark going again if you can think of any or any other advice you think might be helpful in such a situation. Have you gone/are going through some mental road bumps like that and have any insights? If you haven't, what is it about game-making that makes you so excited? Especially the small things?
It means a lot to me. Thank you.
Feel free to skip to the end. I wanted to put the paragraph below in a spoiler but it wouldn't let me for some reason.
I haven't worked on my game for a very long time. I've been dealing with some mental health issues that took every joy out of my life and I didn't feel like I deserved to be happy or do things that were fun. Working on my game was a big hobby of mine for a few years. I spent any moment I could working on it, even though I was distracted a lot by the forums, shiny tilesets, and cool plugins and didn't really have a clear idea and plan of what I needed to do. It used to be a lot of fun, something I was excited about, something I looked forward to every day and it just... made sense to make games. But it doesn't make sense now.
I stopped working on it not because I lost interest but because I felt I didn't quite deserve to make games and be happy anymore because I was a useless person, even though it might seem silly to some. I tried to get back to it several times during the past year but it either sucked me in in such a way that I forgot about eating, sleeping, and everything else I needed to do so I forced myself to stop because I knew I shouldn't ignore what was happening "IRL". Or I had a hard time getting excited about it again because I felt like I shouldn't be doing it.
I would really like to start working on games again. I just can't give up. I tried many times to give up on it, I wanted to delete everything because I couldn't deal with wanting to but not being able to do it. I felt like the idea of possibly making games again sometime in the future was the only light at the end of the tunnel but it just became smaller and smaller as I went."
I'd like to ask you for some easy ways to get that spark going again if you can think of any or any other advice you think might be helpful in such a situation. Have you gone/are going through some mental road bumps like that and have any insights? If you haven't, what is it about game-making that makes you so excited? Especially the small things?
It means a lot to me. Thank you.