Well aware that the OP can't respond yet, but I spent over $100 on MV with some extra assets because it was on sale. I have Ace for free because someone gave me the steam key when the Humble Bundle thing was going on and everyone was buying it for the Ace assets and the like.
I've been at this for little over three years, and I'm such a perfectionist, I can't even finish one game and get it out because absolutely everything has to be perfect.
My first game that I ever started making? Mountain Story. Completely finished, but restarted because I liked the basic concept but didn't like the flow of the story, the mapping, and most everything else.
As Above, So Below, which I was making for an indie game contest? I restarted it from the ground up because there was so much more that I wanted to add. I didn't even submit it to the contest because it was nowhere near what I expected it to be.
Trust me, if you leave the RM community and never touch any RM engines for the rest of your life, the only game maker engines I've encountered that are easier than any I've used elsewhere, you are robbing yourself of something that could be a great asset in your life.
Also, half a year and you got a qiyoigegaposriig game out?! Even if it's an extremely crappy game, that takes a certain kind of bravery to attempt.
I want you to keep that bravery, play your game, realize it's crap, and think to yourself, 'I can do better than this!'
And then, I want you to do better.
I want you to be able to completely overhaul your game, and I want you to be able to look at it and think, 'I did it. I took my crappy game, and I made it better.'
Because that is what I did when I wrote my very first story.
I wrote an entire story, beginning to finish, several hundred pages long, several chapters long, and I read it after I finished it.
It was complete and utter crap.
And I thought, 'I can do better than this.'
And I did.
The feeling of pride I had at that moment, when I held that second draft, when I had a story that was at least passable when compared to the standards of the books I've read, there's nothing that can beat that. Pride in yourself to have striven for greater, and achieving greater.
I want you to know that feeling.
Come on, you can do it.
I believe in you.