unfortunately for you, such a post will limit who will answer to whatever problem you have.
there are several people here on the forum who usually try to help but refuse to watch videos for different reasons (download limits or personal reasons or others).
I'm one of them - if you want my help, you'll need to write out your problem and give screenshots.
I'm glad someone backed up your videos.
It's sad to hear that you had to go through a dark place emotionally.
We all humans. I think we all have been there at some point in life. Just keep in mind there are people who loves you and who are willing to support you emotionally as much as possible.
I wish your new youtube channel to grow well! Enjoy the process.
If you are big MK fan - there are lots of videos that you can make about it. Reviews, reactions, tier lists about characters, outfits, fatalities, MK games, videos about some random MK fun stuff Personally I would love to be subscribed to such channel.
Sometimes a bad event in life leads to an amazing chapter of life.