No money in tinkering...

[mogwai]

My psychiatrist thinks I'm doing better on these horrible Thorazine shots just because I sat down and wrote some seventh grade javascript and didn't curse at my dad for six months, but for that six months I was like the fat cola-addict dudes in Disney Pixar Wall-E. I couldn't handle it.

I'm a web designer for life, which means I hope to some day re-purpose Wordpress communities until I can get enough hits to sell it to Yahoo. That is the dot com formula.

My javascript is not magic. I don't even get this wiring joke.

Spoiler

I'm completely incompetent.

 

[SamJones]

That's not a joke. That's just an illustration of the concept in Ohm's Law.

 

[Tea's Jams]

You remember the old drug commercials. They turn your brain in to a fried egg!!!


XD

Hope you start feeling better though... for real.

 

[Arisa]

Poor thing, I hope you feel better soon!!

 

[Kyuukon]

Meh... fk the psychiatrist. I know I'll probably get bashed for saying this, but believe in yourself and intuition, not some "drug expert" that profits from your "sickness". In the end, I know you'll regret relying on pills instead of trying to overcome your flaws on your own in the time you've got. Mistakes happen to all of us too.

Disclaimer: This is my opinion. Like they say, take it with a grain of salt lol.

 

[Mister.Right]

You're not the only person who got mood disorder/neuron disorder. I too have it. I get extreme anxiety when sitting too long concentrate solving programming problems eventually leads to many other health issues. I am learning how to control it. I am doing some research on the type of natural medicines that can help fix this problem. The good news has I recognized what my problem is after years of trying to understand where it comes from, and found a temporary relief. Same with programming, there's always a solution for every problem, however, where to find it and how to solve it, is the biggest challenge. So yeah, don't give up. As there's this one saying, there's a line between genius and mental illness.

 

[mogwai]

Gremlins was rated R, so I'll end my true sentiments.

I just feel like a tool. I want to binge watch MTV Maxx again and I don't know why.

 

[HexMozart88]

Hmm. I'm not really sure if I'm mentally ill or anything, I get stressed very easily and I get paranoid randomly. I was supposed to see a psychologist for months now but they haven't even called back, so now I'm left filling out these stupid booklets that basically force me to write down all of this positive garbage I don't really mean. So, I guess psychologists and psychiatrists are both about the same. One's ignoring me (when I clearly have a problem of some sort, I mean, I've had to go to the main office before because of a breakdown) and the other is giving you drugs that don't work well. *sigh* Ah, well, we can only hope things get better for both of us.

 

[mogwai]

My mother chainsawed a live pig in half out on the farm.

 

[SamJones]

And you didn't report her to the RSPCA?

 

[mogwai]

I'm sorry.

Spoiler: typical agricultural rant

[rambling]The native american way is to throw the whole hog into a Spam mill and out pops a little ham loaf, but I'm talking vivisection because it was her turn to cook for her daddy.[/rambling]

I never want to offend.
http://jakeis.com/comipo/2016/10/17/jon-stewart-show-with-simba/

 

[Mister.Right]

@HexMozart88 Get a girl friend if you don't have one. She is the solution.

Alternatives; be more socialize, listen to relax song ( do not listen too much music ), stay way from the computer, don't play with phone or ipad while on bed.

In my case, the cause is my brain could not produce some type chemical due to either my brain suffered damage without knowing or inherits from my parents. I am currently on some type of supplements which work for me, don't want to recommend because it may not work for you.

 

[HexMozart88]

@Mister.Right How am I supposed to get a partner if I barely have any regular friends? LOL. Plus, I'm waiting a while anyway. Not ready for that kind of stress. But I have to agree that listening to music (or in my case, making it) is extremely helpful. I need to music to do practically everything.

 

[mogwai]

Get friend, does not compute, when you only know three guys, in the whole world, and a computer for a mate, for life.

 

[Rhino]

Maybe we could be friends? @mogwai and @HexMozart88 I stalked you both a bit (well, really I'm just on this forum more than facebook these days ) but I got the impression that you're both great. At minimum- I've seen you give up your free time to help strangers with their hobbies, which might be a common occurrence here, but it's still pretty darn amazing.

Mental health issues aren't uncommon, and even though you might find that a depressing statement, it also means that there's loads of people out there who understand what you're going through.

Truth is, we don't really know that much about how the brain or even the meds they give actually work. All anyone really knows is that certain ones help certain people. The same drug that helps one person with their condition might make another with the same problem really ill. It's kind of like a lottery, you just have to keep going through them, try it for however long they're asking for and if it's still not working, tell someone. I'm not gonna lie or try to sugar coat it, you probably already know how frustrating it is when the drugs don't work and the doctors don't listen, that's why I love talking to other people with the same problems as me.

They've tried other treatments, created their own ways to cope with disappointments, and some times, it's just nice to speak to someone you know won't judge you.

I don't have many friends either, and the ones I do have live far away. Making new friends is always scary. It takes a certain level of investment and effort to get to know someone, and a nervous wreck like me rarely gets past 'hi' But talking online is so much easier. Until now I've been a bit sceptical of online friends, but I did actually meet up with someone I met online, and hey, we get on great and now he's helping me make a game! So, there is a potential there if you feel like seeking it out.

On this forum, we all have a common interest in making games which is a great start. There's a reason people make friends from classes/work where there's a shared interest. All you have to do is find another one or more, and there's the start of a relationship

 

[mogwai]

I like the name Rhino. It was a Linux build or something that could run on a PS2 too btw

Spoiler: Mogwai's Public Facebook Information

public profiles: https://twitter.com/HuntelJake https://www.facebook.com/jake.jilg.5

(prerequisite warning of stranger danger; I assume everyone is safe behind the screen)

Friends it is!

 

[Rhino]

That's an interesting tidbit. I think it mostly came about from people constantly saying "Rhye- Noo!" since I'm always doing stupid stuff. Rhino's are underappreciated anyway

I still have my PS2. Infact, the modern console I own is a Wii... (not even a WiiU...) What's your favourite console?

More links to stalk Though if I were you, I'd probably remove the links since anyone might stumble on this thread and also stalk you. I'm a bit more cautious of who I share personal info with, so I'll add you on fb when we get to know each other more and you already discovered that I'm a major weeb so I won't have to be embarrassed of all the crap I have on there. If you want, you can send me a PM here though

 

[mogwai]

I actually want to gather as many Facebook friends, who share similar interests, then maybe we could do a giant collab game some time, like the level of the Undertale cast, end credits heart-dodge scene. IDK.

My facebook is swamped with cat and baby pics right now because I'm an uncle.

 

[Mister.Right]

@HexMozart88 Having a girlfriend is like having immediate anxiety relief remedy in possession, same with every medication out there also have side effects. She maybe the pain is the a$$ sometimes, think of it as side effects then.

You can talk or PM me anytime as a friend if you want. I understand what you are enduring/suffering.

When Human get sick that is because some parts of the body do not function due to the following reasons;

1 Physically damaged: example car accident hit your brain
2 Mentally damaged: examples suffer trauma, being abuse or bully
3 toxic/chemical/ damaged: consume too much alcohol, tobacco
4 virus/parasite/over bacteria infection: eat uncook food, have unprotected sex
5 Environment damaged: Pollution, less socialized, workplace stress
6 Defect gene: inherit from parents

I got 4, everyone has it, so I cleanse my body regularly. I also got 6 I spent a lot of time and money trying things to supplement what was missing, something that my body can't produce. I got 3, I did drink, smoke, eat unhealthy food but I already quit drink, smoke and started eating healthy food and stay away from junk food. I also got 5 I am learning how to control it, do exercise, practice martial art, more socializing.

Currently, I am doing research on the process of mummification because I fear bacteria/virus/parasite. I don't want these creatures to eat me alive when my immune system weakened. I make sure these creatures die with me and spread to no one else.

So yeah, there's solution for every problem. The challenge is knowing the cause and how to solve it.

 

[mogwai]

@Mister.Right
LOL, because us manBoys who are still afraid of girls/ladies will have less anxiety in the constant presence of a girlfriend all day long?

I don't think so.