Some of the people I consider my closest friends now are ones I met through here. We started chatting in a group chat a few years ago and several of them I talk to weekly, if not daily.
Discord is great for group chats if you guys want to get to know each other better. Just be wary of online stranger danger and the ages of the group members and such. We had a couple of minors in our group at first, so we took care about the direction the conversation took, just to be on the safe side.
I've heard of Discord, through the pony vine. I've never used it.
Remember this kids:
You'll want to buy the green rabbit pellets for your bunnies.
The pink ones, they are pink and feminine, but don't feed the pink rabbit pellets.
I don't really get all this, but I just wanted to say - @mogwai, from every interaction we've had, you're a stand-up guy! =) You spent a lot of time trying to help me with my font problem, and I honestly, sincerely appreciated it. So please don't be too hard on yourself (I know what that's like) - or let anyone else be, for that matter. We're all just doing the best we can =)
I was bummed out about team Cassini stuff and my own failings, but I remembered a physics class lesson in Edgerton Ne that rocket thrust doesn't work in the vacuum of space. My basil wood bridge held 56 kilograms. I'm not sure what is going to happen, but I hope it's painless.
My depression is deep. My dad has disowned me and my mother is dead. Those two people were my only purpose to exist.
My inbred Christian father literally explained it like I'm just God's problem now, yesterday on the phone.
Congrats on becoming and Uncle
I think a giant collab would be interesting. An absolute pain to set up and organise, but with loads of people who are each able to work on the area they love best, you'd hopefully get a game that 'ticks all the boxes' I've seen some horror stories about trying to work with other people, but I still have hope that it'd work.
I run a discord server for a Japanese Game Translation Project. Has a bit of a learning curve, but ultimately works great. (*Also a shameless plug for the project if anyone wants to volunteer*)
As for your family issues, well, we can't pick them unfortunately A close friend of mine had something really similar happen, she's from a devout Muslim family, went to Uni, became an atheist and now he parents think she's possessed by a Djinn or something, they locked her in her house and tried to stop any of us from seeing her. It's settled down now, but her parents are sort of in denial about the whole thing and she's trying to move out a.s.a.p.
Your situation really sh*tty and tbh, I think anyone living like that would probably get depressed to some degree too. But, it will end. And that's the truth. "Everything ends, and this too shall pass." I know it sounds like utter cr*p right now, but please believe me. Part of depression is that feeling that things will never get better, and it robs you of realising that you have been happy in the past as well. You are capable of being happy. And you will be again.
I have been severely depressed twice, both to the point of being suicidal. But I kept going anyway. Even now, I still have a mild depression that I live with everyday. I have no plans for the future, and if you ask me, I'll just break down and cry. I've been drawing for a decade, but now I can't pick up my tablet pen without sobbing. I'm still here though. I get up everyday and work on my game, and the reason is simple- because I have hope. I cling onto life in the knowledge that things can always change. I know I've been worse and I know I've been better, and I also know, that one day, things will be ok again.
You'll find a new reason to exist. It doesn't need to be poetic or world changing. If you look around- you'll see all the lives you've touched, all the people who are grateful for your existence and your aid. Me, CriticalGames and countless others owe parts of our world to you.
Your purpose will change and waver, it'll be tested and constantly questioned by life, but hold tight to it anyway. Some days I literally only get up because there's nice food in the fridge. It doesn't matter what it is, selfish, small or big or utterly random. You'll find it, and you'll find joy and happiness and love all over again. I promise.
There aren't really any original ideas in the world anymore Even if there's already games with ideas you would have like to do- that's no reason to give up on them. You can take inspiration from those games, what you liked and what you didn't, and remake it in your way.
Didn't Echo make a really great speech about how you are the only person who can make your game? I can't remember which video it was, but it was pretty sweet She's someone who has a lot of passion about RPGM, and when you look at people like that who put so much love and joy into their games, hopefully it'll remind you what you like about it, and why you got into this community
We're all here to help out, if you need inspiration, motivation, bugtesters, graphics, music etc there's loads of people who can and would be happy support you. As you get to know them, maybe you'll build some long term friendships and form a team, and make the next best seller or something. Anything is possible
LOL, animation is not my strong suit. And Bugs testing requires owning up to 5000 unique devices to test on that I can't possibly afford to own.
Can you link to the echo speech? In 2013, there was a shortage of human euthanasia drugs and doctors had to test on mental patients in LRC(Lincoln NE) to discover something to put down the attempted assassin of Larry Flynt. I'm a little out of touch, because I was one of the patients.
Which is why we have a community. You can post your animation in Resource Support and get advice on how to make it better, what tutorials to look at and stuff like that. You don't have to own all the devices, no one does (probably). That's why we have forums to ask for other peoples help. People on here will have super high end computers, and ones that take 5 minutes to boot RM. They'll have Mac and Linux and different iOS or android devices, and be able to test and report back to you.
I couldn't find the speech I was referring to (man, Echo has a lot of videos ) but I found this one (around 10 mins in) and this (around 9 mins) which are both sweet. It's hard to look at motivational/inspirational things when you're feeling down. Sometimes I stumbled on motivational quotes about how hard times make good things and it just makes me want to punch a hole in the monitor. So when you listen to someone like Echo talk you have to remind yourself to keep an open mind. If you click on it thinking 'this won't make me feel better' then you know.. it's not gonna. So I tend to look at them when I'm feeling more neutral, and then you might get swept up in the things she's talking about and the passion she has. It's a reminder that a good RM game is directly proportional to the amount of love and care in it.
I don't think her art is groundbreaking, in terms of shading and what not, the rtp might actually be superior. But when you look at those previews it is like.. wow. The characters hair moves in the wind, they have climbing animations, there's busts with different emotions. It's the investment of time that makes it so impressive and respectable, and it's something that absolutely anyone can do.
Tbh, I don't always understand what you're talking about with the things you reference and whatnot. But I did stalk your blog a bit, and you said-
I’m like a spider among this human insect world. I do my own thing that seemingly benefits no other insect, but I assure you there is a place in insect society and the webs I spin are beautiful and valuable to me.
The things you made there, didn't change. They're still as beautiful and valuable as they ever were. If they don't feel like that now, it's not because they were never wonderful, it's only because you stopped seeing them that way. Depression is going to make you doubt yourself and devalue everything you do. It's basically like having a bully in your brain, telling you that you're worthless and making you feel small. The things your depression tells you- aren't really true. They're just thoughts that have become so ingrained in your system that they feel real. You can fight them. Gather your army of support, gather your weapons of the things that make you feel good. Fill your thoughts with good ones and drown out the noise and squabble. You can win this war.
As far as I know Echo607 is the main Echo in this community?
Everyone gets sad, and it's ok to be. Don't beat yourself up for not being happy all the time. Just hold on to the thought and belief that you can feel happy and gitty and inspired again. It'll come, and then it'll fade, and then it'll come back for you again. Such is the rollercoaster of life.
*shudder* thorazine shuffle i feel ya. But don't let it get you down. You can choose how to live the life you want once youre free of their influence.
After being on and off the couch for 20 years i gave up on humanity and finally got a place i can dig in and program to my hearts content. My family gave up forcing me to be normal when my weirdo ideas are actually making some change lol. I'm the (formerly drunk) grumpy cousin who hates on everything. now that I can no longer skirt by with a Collins in hand I now don't even bother leaving my house and I'm happy with that.
I feel like I've had another shot
because I don't have a thought in my head
I'm gaining roughly 5 lbs every day even though I have no food in the apartment
my arm hurts where they give me the shot
and I'm insatiable for stimulation because deficit = demand
Just beat the last of us 2 last night and starting jedi: fallen order right now, both use unreal engine & when I say i knew 80% of jedi's buttons right away because they were the same buttons as TLOU2 its ridiculous, even the same narrow hallway crawl and barely-made-it jump they do. Unreal Engine is just big budget RPG Maker the way they make games nearly identical at its core lol.
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We started chatting in a group chat a few years ago and several of them I talk to weekly, if not daily. 
