Aside from the obvious of releasing my game...I kind of want to go back to what I was doing until around five years ago back when I was homeless and travel around the country. I've seen large swaths of the South East already but would love to see such sights as the Cascade Range, the boundary waters, Yosemite, Frankchurch and Alaska (pretty much all of Alaska that isn't a city, because **** cities. Same with Canada along the way).
Honestly if I forget the not having a place to come back to and the having to poach, steal and beg for sustenance my vagrant days were the best times I've ever had, I suspect if I can get back to that but with the funds not to always have to worry about starving or being jailed for not starving (which wouldn't last very long, I'd undoubtedly be found dead of some kind of self-inflicted wound within a week of being locked up in one place crowded with a bunch of other people) then I might actually become a somewhat happy person and be able to enjoy life...instead of being miserable around people like I was in school, being afraid to leave my house like I was as a teen or just coping by avoiding people except the bare minimum I have to be around to hold down a job in real life while overdoing the social aspects of a site that's supposed to be to help me make a game like I'm doing right now.
I just want to get back to that, if I had enough money to sustain myself indefinitely (which wouldn't be very much as I'm a very minimalist person, would basically only need food, gas and supplies because I'd be spending the vast majority of my time in uninhabited wildernesses so hotel bills and other common travel expenses would be as irrelevant to me now as they were back when I didn't have the money to even get the food) I might would even give up on even having a home willingly this time around. Gotta wait til my dog dies first though (he's almost 16 and far to old and decrepit to be a vagrant again) and find another big, young dog to be my travel buddy.
And then, if we're dreaming big here, I'd really like to have either a little two-seater plane or helicopter or the like, because while I'm at it driving around on asphalt isn't really my favorite thing either and it'd be awesome to travel wherever I wanted on a whim, just me and a puppy on a tiny plane (I know I guy who flies his tiny plane with a potbellied pig so I'm sure I could find a dog who would enjoy flying). Maybe that'll be my working goal rather than getting my own house, though unless I win the lottery or something I doubt I could save up enough money to keep it fed with gas and maintained for very long without working so, that'd make using it to actually travel like I want somewhat difficult. Still, it's a nice dream whether or not it's a sound plan.
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@Plueschkatze I've always found it's the opposite for me, if I'm not continually thinking about the future I get anxious because I feel like nothing in my life is ever going to change, and that (not quite so much these days but unfailingly from childhood onto early 20s) gets me into really dark places that I can't always find my way out of unscathed. The only constant in life is change, for me that's a comfort, about the only comfort in my life in all honesty.
